5/15/2008

more observations about the family bookstore

for some of you who take the time to read my blog or listen to me spout my many opinions you know that i struggle sometimes with the christian family bookstore. it's a tender love-hate relationship. (for review check out is your book male or female) once again i find myself at this dear store perplexed by what i find or what i find lacking.

you see i was in need of a sappy i'm sorry card. as usual my mouth got the best of me and i found that this week i had perhaps not expressed myself in the kindest, most patient or grace-giving way. i need a card to say hey i screwed this up. i'm sorry. you know the basic i am in need of forgiveness do you happen to have any laying around?

so i browsed the card section. there were cards of sympathy. for weddings and new babies. for pastor appreciation. to say thanks and i love you. to encourage and to wish you no more sickness. miss you and congratulations and graduation. it was all there. and if you wanted a truly spiritual card you can find one in each of those categories. there were verses abounding on cards for every possible emotion - love, joy, congrats, death.

except one. forgiveness. now maybe it's just me but it strikes me quite odd that at a christian bookstore there are no cards to help you express the need for forgiveness. no cards to help you make amends, bridge the gap, make peace, extend an olive branch.

the very name - christian (well it is now family bookstore but we know what they sell inside - christian "stuff") - on the doors is a testimony to forgiveness. a synonym if you will. Christ came because we were in need of forgiveness. we were in need and still are of confession. the bible tells us to confess our sins to God and to one another. Jesus told us to leave our gifts at the altar and go make amends with our brother before doing anything else. there is scripture galore about mercy and love and forgiveness and grace and bearing the burdens and weaknesses of others. and verses about family and unity and fellowship. all of which require the grace to live with others who will need forgiveness. who will need to express an occasional (or if you're me, frequent) i'm sorry.

but we provide no cards with beautifully scrolled verses to remind the receiver of such a card of God's grace, mercy, love and forgiveness. no card with a tribute to God's calling us to live as a family and as a body, as a unit. no reminder that to do that is to be in need of forgiveness and to need to offer forgiveness.

of all belief groups in the world christians should be the most transparent. (disclaimer: a goal i have yet to accomplish or come close to. in fact one i personally would prefer to not attain at times. my crap should be just that. my crap.) the community as God intended requires that i allow others into my life and i seek to be in the lives of others. and this is dirty work. and it gets muddled in the process. but there can be something beautiful in that mess. (think the wonder of making dirt pies as a kid - what joy!) this is especially true when we can offer forgiveness and when we can seek it from one another.

God's mercy. Christ's grace. it's never more seen than when we offer it to one another as often as is needed. for all users of forgiveness. occasional or frequent.

which is why there needs to be a section, maybe it should be the biggest section, of hey i'm sorry. got this thing all goofed up again. let's try again.

5/05/2008

the weepies....YEAH!

the weepies have a new album out - www.theweepies.com. I'm so excited.

great song....lighting candles...

Trying not to hope too hard
For what I want
Trying not to go too far
With all the dreamingAll the disappointment
So hard to handle
I am still in the dark
Lighting candles
Late at night
I Lie awake
Think I should go
Catch a train to stranger towns
Where no one knows me
All the disappointment
So hard to handle
I am still in the dark
Lighting candles
All the company you keep
The things you do
Something in my heart
Will not give all you
Now that I have got somewhere
Where will I go
Love’s a train to city lights
Where someone knows you
All the disappointment
So hard to handle
I am still in the dark
Lighting candles
I am still in the dark
Lighting candles

beginnings of possible poems...rough drafts

resentments grow subtly with time
begin with a dish left in the sink
dirty towel on the floor.
quietly they flourish
and sometimes you think you hear them
you're pretty sure you saw them but like
shared glances between two strangers
on a train they're gone before they vanish.
they resume their usual place in the disconnect
between your soul and his. and you live with them
like an itch you can't find.

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you ask.
i answer.
polite conversation concluded.
i touch.
you linger.
hesitation surrenders.

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dust in the eyes

star wars
snoopy
michael jordan
atlanta braves
mashed potatoes
macaroni and cheese
flip flops
tattoos and earrings
disney world
baby blue
violent video games
blow dryer in your sleep
'n' sync and a wannabe
wonder if you ever get
my dust in your eyes?

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